Oh dear, nearly six months since I last posted a blog. It is not that I have been bothered to write to you. Oh no. It is because words have been absent in my head, and that includes verbal words as much as written ones. It has been a heavy time for me since I was sliced open to have my heart 'repaired'. Long months of not feeling myself. Having to get used to hobbling around at a much slower pace , which has left me feeling ancient in years and useless.
But it has been the best of times as well. The benefit of those long months of physical and mental inactivity has enabled me to rethink and revaluate parts of my life which had caused me a a hoohah of pain and tears in abundance at the time they happened, but had become become buried in my memory, filed away because there was no time to think them through as my life hurtled its way onwards.
So it has been a slow time for me, but one of much soul searching and much growth of self. All the emotional detritus which I had accumulated in the past has been mostly let go off, and a more refined version of me seems to have been born. I am still the same of course, but I am slightly different in self. As I have said, it has been the best of times interspersed with intense bouts of soul searching.
I can now walk as far as the bus stop, which is on an uphill gradient so good for my thighs. It is not far, but there is no bus shelter to wait in, so if the bus is delayed it does mean having to lean on the bus stop post to support myself. I am not good at standing for a length of time, but if I take my walking pole with me then I can use that to lean on. However the walking pole is a fearsome nuisance for getting on and off the bus. Not to worry, I need it for the moment, but when out for a walk I now carry it rather than leaning on it for support all the time.
I am also helped by my shrinking bosom, the weight of which tended to make me stoop with the heaviness of them. The loss of weight has also benefitted the amount of body luggage that my physical frame has to cope with, and I have my partner to thank for this because he has put us on a low carb / sugar free regime. No more biscuits and evening nibbles..... just one meal a day (two for me) made up of protein, salad, and vegetables, with no food after 6 pm which gives the body time to digest and absorb what we have eaten. I am sleeping better, do not get up for the loo during the night, and wake up between 4 - 5 am after 7-8 hours of sleep.
Your attitude is commendable! Glad your recovery is coming along so well!
Nice to see you writing again Vera.
Such positive steps Slow but steady. Glad to read an update as I have looked in since your time in France. .
Vera - It is wonderful to hear your (virtual) voice! I just thinking the other day that I should check in as it had been a while.
I am glad to hear that (overall) things are going okay. Recovery from surgery is hard at the best of times; much more so when something like the heart is involved! Sounds like you are taking it slowly, which is a grand idea.
The Ravishing Mrs. TB has also been on a calorie reduction adventure. She has been at it for around 9 months now and very diligent at it - she lost over 50 lbs and feels great. It is amazing how a change in diet can impact so much.
Completely pulling for you to get on the motorcycle!
sbrgirl..... Thank you. I try to value each moment of my life.....Vx
Northsider..... Thank you, it was nice to pick up the writing again, although it took me ages to write the blog because my vocabulary had gotten rusty!
Anonymous..... You are so kind, and you are right... slow but steady wins the day. Thank you. Vx
Toirdhealbheach Beucail ..... It might be a while before I get to ride on a motorcycle again, perhaps in my next life if I run out of time in this life!
Losing weight was not on my list of 'to do's', but now I have lost the weight I am amazed at how much lighter I feel. I would think that your wife feels the same.
Thank you for your kindness.
I'm glad to read a post from you and learn that You're OK. I suppose that after recovering from surgery, we can expect now some more snippets and updates of your life in England.
Wishing you the very best!
Hello Duta, yes, I shall try to post more regularly, although now I am living in England I do not have the quantity of subject material that living on the farm in France gave me.
Hope you are keeping well.
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